Hell Yeah!

I first heard of this term from the creator of Be More with Less Courtney Carver. 

If your soul is not saying "Hell Yeah!" about something, then say no. 

Using this to draw boundaries was very helpful. It makes me aware of the times that I'm trying to be nice to get people to like me. (Even if they did in the end, it is a fake me. What's the point).

I truly started practicing it when I did the Artist's Way.

Part of the non-negotiable activity in this 12-weeks journey includes a weekly date with yourself.

This date has to be by your ownself, doing something you want to do but have been saying 'no' due to people's judgment, own judgment, self-talk, etc.

As the over-achiever that I am, I always wanna do things 'right'.

Since I'm gonna date myself, I may as well do a "Hell Yeah!" activity and bring the point home.

So what exactly is Hell Yeah!? Well, I define it as something (can be a movie / an activity) that makes my heart soar and my soul feel free. Free of judgement and restriction. It can't have any purpose too. Once there is a purpose / meaning to it, it gets all bogged down by the Ego trying to 'perfect' it. 

Or trying to kill two stones with one bird, like "since you want to cycle, why don't you cycle to work?" Then the focus on getting there on time kills the journey. Thus the irony is for the purpose to NOT have any purpose. 

Anyway.

One would think that it is easy to know what one wants. Pfft.

After years of conditioning to be 'sociable', 'normal', 'efficient' and 'not stupid', it's hard for me.

First few dates was, well, easy. Just clearing my bucket list.

Then old patterns seep in... things started to be 'pointless' and 'stupid'..

"Are you crazy? Wearing a furry suit and walk around in this weather?"

"Dancing in the public?? Pftt"

"Cycling on the empty street at 4am? Don't you need to sleep?"

"Singing in the rain?? You think you in a broadway show??"

Takes a lot of introspection to be aware that the only person negging me and holding me back is my brain.

Maybe it is trying to protect me, maybe it is trying to justify it's existence as usual, but it restrict the soul nonetheless.

When the soul gets bound up, like a bird in a cage, no amount of sleep and rest and me time is gonna fix it. External stimuli are temporary fixes and Im way pass that.

And it's not like I didnt try to take a short cut. I did. Trying to get a friend along / trying to use the activity as a way to get attention / to get approval. Nope, doesnt work.

End of the day, it is myself I need to get along with, my soul that needs my attention and my approval I need.

Thus, while it is all fun and hell yeah, I do need to seriously carve out time to listen and plan it it ABOVE everything else. 

When Im feeling hell yeah inside, the outside doesnt matter anymore. Although, it is always observed that outer hell yeah will 100% be a side effect of an inner hell yeah. Things fall in place in synchronicity. 

Aint that the sweetest? 

Hell Yeah!